"Okay"

I have been away from my laptop the past few days, and compared to November through February, I have been bad at writing and keeping my head focused on life and all that makes me what I am.

What makes me what I am??

I believe Christ has made me who "I am"

A greater being is the only thing I can fathom...because humans, In my eyes, can't possibly create what we are.

If that day comes, well I hope I am gone by then.

I have been pondering a lot these past few months.

For those that may not know I went to a Christian ministry school in Montana, then I spent a few months in Taiwan and China for an "outreach"

This whole experience broadened everything I thought or believed, (which wasn't much to begin with)

But...It was great and I loved it and wish I could do it again because it was that good.

Now reality...and its okay...

just

okay

Is it okay...to just be okay?

I don't like living an "okay" life

I prefer EXTRAORDINARY

But my point in bringing this up is that my life, has just been "okay" these past months.

I was at a party this past weekend and while conversing with an individual we talked about what we do and have been doing sense this last summer.

To put it simply, I, along with others apparently don't "live it up."

Sorry but what the hell does that mean?

When I say life is just okay, I'm implying that there are highs and lows through life.

Neither gets more attention then the other in my eyes.

I can't say there have been any low lows..and,

There haven't been many high highs

So maybe that's where we should be then all the time right?

I hope so, and I strive to live a life that exemplifies that.

If God takes me to a place where things are hard

Then I will walk through it, same goes for the things that are good in life.

Having our minds and hearts set on the destination brings us closer to realizing that both good and bad doesn't matter.

Celebrate in "good times"

Enjoy them..."live it up"

Love everything about it

But in that goodness don't forget that things may just end up becoming "okay"

I say this because I was just apart of something Good, rather amazing actually.

And in a lot of ways I wish so hard to experience things like that again, but I won't..at least not like that. So I'm in an "okay" place right now.

The other side to it is that I may be living in the "okay" right now because the hard and challenging is right around the corner...maybe tomorrow, if tomorrow comes.

All in all, I am content

Who knows what tomorrow will look like...