So I was listening to some worship music, and I was going crazy with it. God is so good in the many way's and times he reveals himself. I'm just sitting here listening to music in a kitchen, in Taiwan, praising the Lord! I freaking love him and all that he is to me. Just a few months ago, I was not the least bit focused or "in tune" with his praise or love. The sound of his love is so good! He is here, not just in this moment or when we praise him, but all the time. How great is it that we can do it anywhere, and in any form, silence or singing at the top of our lungs, people around us, or in reverie. He has made me, and although I was broken, frustrated, angry, and disobedient he was there and I just needed to be even more broken so I may grow, made alive again. Broken again?? Yeah I have had to let go of all the crap and garbage I filled my life with, face it, and get to a complete low. Because only he can fix it, (and realize that). My own flesh can't do any of these things to make it better, that is why I had to completely be broken. And my brokenness was a simple, and a rather peaceful fall. I really mean this, and I praise him so much for making me that way. Going before him, on my face with nothing, that is all it took. AWWW dang it hit so hard when I did that. Breathless in front of all I had done, to myself, to others, and to God. But he came. Brought me up and now I'm here!? Whoa! I can't get enough. It was those first 6 weeks away, and it changed me. I feel I am rambling on ha..... Well there it is, I say all of this because I am in amazement when I look back, and I praise God everyday for doing all of this. In another country, months after all of this, I am still amazed and praising him for this work.