I sit here..

Stubborn in inspiration and laking words

This is just a frustration in itself

Really Aaron? Blaaaaaaaaaaa

I can't get words out and onto paper

I want to just say it, but that's not how it's working

Am I at a loss for words?...but in a different way this time

It tends to just be a "block"

But not this.

Is this what it's like?

A loss of words because of awe?

Awe of it all....and of who all.

Ah. It's Awe, and the risk...

This

This all I have

A heart that want's to give you that

I have no skills

No great gift to offer

No musical talent

No "show" or presentation

This is all I have

This is it

I have lost everything

This is all

This is everything

So I was listening to some worship music, and I was going crazy with it. God is so good in the many way's and times he reveals himself. I'm just sitting here listening to music in a kitchen, in Taiwan, praising the Lord! I freaking love him and all that he is to me. Just a few months ago, I was not the least bit focused or "in tune" with his praise or love. The sound of his love is so good! He is here, not just in this moment or when we praise him, but all the time. How great is it that we can do it anywhere, and in any form, silence or singing at the top of our lungs, people around us, or in reverie. He has made me, and although I was broken, frustrated, angry, and disobedient he was there and I just needed to be even more broken so I may grow, made alive again. Broken again?? Yeah I have had to let go of all the crap and garbage I filled my life with, face it, and get to a complete low. Because only he can fix it, (and realize that). My own flesh can't do any of these things to make it better, that is why I had to completely be broken. And my brokenness was a simple, and a rather peaceful fall. I really mean this, and I praise him so much for making me that way. Going before him, on my face with nothing, that is all it took. AWWW dang it hit so hard when I did that. Breathless in front of all I had done, to myself, to others, and to God. But he came. Brought me up and now I'm here!? Whoa! I can't get enough. It was those first 6 weeks away, and it changed me. I feel I am rambling on ha..... Well there it is, I say all of this because I am in amazement when I look back, and I praise God everyday for doing all of this. In another country, months after all of this, I am still amazed and praising him for this work.

Your freedom oh God

You let me go.

As I lay.... and gone ....

You are the one

You make me rest

You settle my heart

You bring uncontainable joy

Open to you

I rise and realize

Shhhhh

There. you speak

You are with me

You are my thief

Open I come, eye's wide

You took me for the night

In your house, where I want to be

I want to taste more of the sweetness you have for me

Slumber or Sound

That is when there is peace

patience

prolonging

a deep desire...

you

Rhythm, despite the world

Holy. Lord. God.

Spent the weekend at a church, hung out with Jr High kids all day Saturday and Sunday. It was a blast playing games, eating their food, and watching movies. My life is good and this is the perfect example of God's kingdom. People of all ages and backgrounds simply coming together to basically "party"

I no it sounds silly, but it's true. In every way, we were created to do things like this, we don't need to get crazy and on some pedestal to "have a good time" and do what "God tells us to do" cause that isn't true in all cases.

Enjoying company and friends is important, and I am so thankful I got to do that with people in another country, and for that reason people I just saw for the first time!

That give's me something to live for....yeah we get to party with each other just for the sake of it because that's how God created us.

There are many great things in life, and I don't expect it do be this way all the time, but I praise God now, and I no it won't be the last time he does good for me.

Good for me......Yeah, even good in bad.

So as I leave with that, there is more to come on the way. My journey so far has been eventful and delightful. Many stories, and more.

wrestling with God is good

being caught in his spirit leaves me at a loss for words

literally

...awe...

I am going to bed

Gods love over pours through my mind

He is the number one thought and desire

He gives me breath

He pours out grace

Strengthens the weak

I long to see his heart more.more.more

I see his heart in you

Yes you

Can more be like you?

Or is this right for us to cross paths right now?

I like what God does

Yet it's mysterious

He is real

You are real

I am real

I have said this before

But let's talk...more

Deeper

About Him

Focused on those things

And us.....

Today was a fantastic day.

Myself and 2 other guy's went to the university and played basketball for 3 hours... amazing

We just got to play and hang out with the local students there and it was a great experience

To have the opportunity to hang out with people in another culture makes me want to live...fully live. I have been writing constantly in my journal about all these experiences. I will share a few with you along the way but for now I just want to say that things here are great. I miss home and Montana, but this is where I am at and God is good. Really he is, Good.

There was little talk about why we are here in Taiwan, and that was good. One of the first steps is just building relationships with people. I like this, no shouting, and no mission statements about how we need to tell people about Jesus all the time, its simply BEING a human being. We were made to talk and build friendship with people...just like everyone else. I am no different. So talking, being me, being realistic, true to being a human.

View out of my room
Amazing invention right here BAHAHA

Well right now I am in the Korean airport waiting for our flight to Taiwan. Last night was awesome. We got into Korea around 7, and 4 of us went to the downtown area where everyone seemed to be. Its so cool to be seeing places I have only heard about or seen pictures of. The whole experience is so amazing and I am so blessed to have the chance to do this. I am happily afraid to say that I love this place already! Please feel free to email me at abagato1@me.com

I will continue to update this during my time away.

Let's be even more honest....

There is an explosion inside of me that is so calm.

I am comfortable with the newness of it all

Thank you Lord!

So... it is good. And it makes sense

We will talk

We walked

It was great

Let's keep it up.