So what do you think?

I sit here and think of you.....

Is it you? Is this me? No. Well give me your hand and an open heart and I'll tell you.

Isn't two better than one?

So still I sit, can we talk , about you, about me, about us...

This is helping.

Us?! Can we discover more.

What will the cure be?

Am I a distraction?

This is no mistake, so let's do it the right way.

Am I to you, you are for me?

Let's try... This is not as confusing as it could be.

One more cup of coffee, and then I'll go.

All of me want's to no you better, let's talk.

I want to no you more....YOU!

Thanks trusty Relationship Field guide Handbook!

So what do you think? What do you no?

Needle Girl

I have been listening to the new switchfoot CD and it has brought me this lyric

"You're a needle girl, in a haystack world.. it's no accident we're here tonight"

just a thought....I like how God speaks, let that marinate for awhile.

blink

There the girl sits,she blinks...Ahhhh

so refreshing {speculative} in her eye's

she submits her pen to the page

a laugh, a giggle......

oh she notices something about me!

your heart is like a drop of ink on the page

you never stop, only to think

oh but there you blink!

just that is so symbolic (to me)

you are meant to blink, just like a restart of what you are looking at

what if our hearts could blink?

BUT they do! WE ARE FREE! your heart blinked, and you were set back to what's right!

In God's eye's

He blinked

Forgot about what he just saw

and began seeing a new you

(to jana strickler) the girl across the table that so inspired me in this moment.

I'm sleepy today

And God is showing me an awful lot today

This week are going over spiritual warfare, and the battles we have in out minds

And yes currently I am battling my mind right now

music calms, to bring the cure

the cure sways me to a divine beat in my heart

the keys cling to the music in my mind

and my eyes glaze with indifference

indifference of the soul

a deeper part then I may no

this battle of body and mind

it's the matter that I am composed of

God has created me in that way

but why the opposition in my heart

it burns deep into my mind

am I right

is THIS right?

are you right?

Me?

Cause its not anyone.

There is a freedom from past

but a battle of who

a connection that I don't no who it's from

is this God

or is this the opposition from the battle within me......?

Loud

in my room, listening to my room mate talk to me about whatevs.....while my music is playing.......can i sleep

im tired, what is it with people staying up till 3 in the morning and disrupting the sleepy.

i lay in my bed and want silence

seeking it so hard but it wont stop

this is not out of frustration with anyone. but really people

PLEASE

im ready for a good nights sleep

longing to wake for a day filled with learning

a day lead by the spirit without sleepiness

thats me

thats you

its cool

but so is your bed.

call me old man

call me a party pooper

but if you say that....think again

i like having fun and being apart of the "party"

so here i go, to sleep at some kind of a reasonable hour

yup here it is. goodnight!

Currently reading in a calm quiet place

Imprisoned In Iran

By: Dan Baumann

Looking forward to this next peaceful hour

then some more worship tonight, and probably go out and walk on this fine evening.

TODAY IS A GREAT DAY!!!!

AHHHH what an amazing day it has been

I woke up like every morning, but there was something about today I knew was going to be to good.

Went to breakfast, took a long warm shower,

deep breathing to clear my mind and body

got some tea, and headed to a quiet place to meditate for awhile.

wrote some stuff down, read a bit, and went to worship....

that went unbelievably well and also won a free chai for having the cleanest room in the dorms!

so off to class I go

waited on the Lord and yep it turned into one of those days, that feeling I got this morning set in

a feeling of pure LOVE

Gods presence overwhelming me so hard core

I almost can't put all this into words of how great it was

I'm just so high off what God is doing

Ill post more later when I have made better sense of how to put this in the right words.

So today has been a rather refreshing day

and very different from last week

I am enjoying some music with a friend beside, and that has been a good thing about today

realizing friendship is what we all need more of in our life

being genuine and true with other people

I don't show a lot of "emotion" in that area but I appreciate it greatly.

I also just want to make note that this Friday will be a good day

TWOLHA is going on, write LOVE on your arm just in support of those you may or may not no that suffer or have dealt with depression, cutting, addictions of any kind, and so forth.

Me personally no a few that have been through some of these things and in remembrance of them and celebrating them is very important.

So do it.

Oh, well the wind starts to look like her hair

And the sun and her bright blue eyes

As the sea and the shore fall and rise

Like her breast as she breathes by my side

And the moon is her lips

And the sun is headed on down to the sea

Like her hair as she lays down on me

Until we reach ocean side

Over and over I hear the same train

With the rhythm of my heart

And my sleepy girl's breathing

With the rhythm of my southbound train

This is Jon Foreman's lyrics to a song that just makes me happy.

One day when that person comes into my life, this is how I will feel. no doubt

The words are exactly how calming it is to love and be loved

God's love overrules all this but between two humans this is pretty good description.

I don't no this entirely from experience, but there are people I really care about.

And it has nothing to do with a significant other, because I don't have one.

This just touched a spot inside of me

(:

Well....

Do you ever have a day where time just isn't on at the right time? Today was a day like that.

Long.

Dry.

Somewhat unproductive.... Basically I cant wait to get out of this country for a few months, but there are many I will miss.

I'm sitting in our library currently and its quiet peaceful, I like this a lot these days.

As many may no I have always been an "always GO GO GO" person...but I'm way tired of that, and do you ever get that feeling....... the one that you no will stick with you for the rest of your life because of major changes.

Well this is one of those. Its nice and makes my life ...... sweeter.

Oh and have you ever had a day where all that matters is "how much have I done with myself today??"

Yeah it's also been one of those day's. Even though I am enjoying the calmness in my life I have not been productive in the finest way.

These are my thoughts, and yeah I'm ready for a new week of goodness to begin. God is awesome, I'm off to spend some more time with the big man.

Alive Again

My broken branch is dead

My leaves are alive again

(This was on my mind. New life is good, just pondering the quote)

Sunshine

The sun shines through

Wood showing its true colors, this is my view.

Isn't it cool?!... I get to wake to this, how nice.

Why have I ignored the true beauty and elegance for so long?

I just want to reach out and grab a piece of it, hold it, snuggle to the warmth.

Today I work, but thankfully God has the sun shinning so I wont be to down about that.

Its surprising how the weather dictates how we fell sometimes.

Don't get me wrong, I like the winter but its not my favorite.

I will say though, I need sunlight, and quiet often at that.

This Week

Literally rocked my world. I have never been so shocked by Gods power and greatness

Total affirmation in his words and the things he is going to do in my life.

Waiting is so good.

Or as they say patience is a virtue....well lets see Isa. 40:31

"Those that wait on the Lord renew their strength"

This is good. Waiting is so imperative and has become a crucial part of my day.

Is my heart right?

My mind?

God only knows what will be done with me through the day.

but he gave us a mind to use, and that brings us to our daily choices.

My heart continues to long deeply for him, and he answers in way I cant see coming.

Pure confirmation is bliss in the spirit.

A new found LOVE in him

My rooms view

How can I not stand in pure amazement! Look at this, not just the sky... deeper then that

Today is an amazing day in my life, and in the lives around me. Complete praise and adoration in all that God does! (:

Impact:Touch

My heart cant cry out enough.

God your provision over me shatters all perception.

You are all that reigns and stirs the fire.

Your grace and LOVE are purely crystalized like a fine piece that wont be tapped or chipped.

All I ever need is your love.

Oh how you show how great you are.

Breaking me to the very tear that falls (silence breaks. silently)

No other thing can be done in such a way.

Only you and you presence do such works.

How can I not trust in the great God?

You see me. Know me. Believe that even I can follow you!

My bones crumble.

My chest fills with air.

Pure weakness pushes on my lungs.

No air but a brokeness of sweetness

That of which blows through my arms

Fingers desire to touch. Reach. Grab. Only you!

Wreckage in you is at its prime.

Climax plateau's, Forever and more.

My face flares with pure praise.

Determination in the Spirit.

Sharply bundling your presence in my arms.

Upon my chest.

An embrace of sweetness.

I'm progressively moving forward.

You purify, cleanly sweep a path.

You're writing to me.

Each letter and word smooth to the page.

Like water in the morning.

Running down glass.

Cleaning a spot.

One. At. Atime.

The dew drips. . runs

Escaping the sky to be.set on your glory.

For us. From you

One thing at a time {dripdrip}

It does not stop until it reaches its purposeful destination.Like a fresh breath.coolness. touch.

Purifying what it touches in a small way.

And then.Impactfully

A splash..

Making a change of what it hits. Impacts.......

Small drop. Impacting like a large drop

Still.Quiet.Voice of PEACE.

in the silence. CHAOS

Two opposites, same whole attraction.

Touches.

Impacts..